not very poorly sick, but enough to make me irritated with my body for somehow ‘letting me down’. I don’t cope well with illness, mine or anyone elses. Try and pass it off as probably a hangover or allergies when all I should be doing is lying down, taking it easy and giving myself some chance to get properly better. I’m not very good at relaxing, I used to think this was a good trait, a positive thing,
“look how much I can get done”
Now I’m not so sure. I think I would like to be able to slow down, lie back and not feel guilty about it. I’m not sure that I ever will.